December 11, 2018

#11_12_2018 Throwback to few years ago

Am organising photos in my computer.

Photos around 2014
Just bought the platform wedges, trying on it! 

Went to a party, love the recipe by my friend, asking recipe and try to do it. 

Making cheesecake for don't know how many times ady. Which I didnt do now as I seldom kitchen, too much to do, too many commitment to fulfill. 

Acting silly with my sibling. 

Acting silly by pouting

Joining friends

Taking a nice nice photo during CNY 

Meeting up with friends

 and meet up round 2

 and meet up again. 

When free or stress, let's be narcisstic 

Doll up yourself, testing your photography skill

Yet dont' forget to act silly. 

Then meet up with friends again. 

Of course, need to take OOTD. 

Acting in a drama. 

Together with coursemate. 

Joining society. 

When in stress, doll up again. 

Be narcisstic

And try something new. Like learning how to put false lashes. 

Attending prom

and take photo again. 

then find your favourite lecturer and take photos again. 

When weekend arrives, then meet up with friends. 

ALong the way, be silly, courageous, and passionate. 

Cooking will make you fruitful too! 

So do learning dance. 

And showing off how young you are. 

Acting cool by not looking at the camera. 

But sometime you just have to look at the camera. 

and make that silly face. and didn't post it on social media. 

and putting on bright red lips to be like Taylor Swift. 

And dating

Catching his precious moment. 

Then exploring your fashion style. 

And be amazed how cheap the book here. 

Having a make-over by the professional MUA. 

Travelling, Meeting up with friends. 

Take part in a camp

Trying on boyfriend convocation robe and etc. 

Actually, there is more. But let's make my future be as bright, silly, prudent with clearer direction than when I was! 

I found a few things. I was so worry-free back then when I was studying! I feel like I was having a full-time to explore anything I want, and part time studying

I just kept playing, taking nice photos, tasting great food, hanging with friends like once in a week or two! Looking back from where I am now. My past give the feeling that nothing is impossible, only the sky is the limit, back then everything is possible.

Also I found out that back then my hand (富贵手) , my hands won't get irritated easily, even though I cooked frequently. I guess it's the stress, the pressure of chasing something, comparing self with other, and the mundane working routine, lesser time to rest that lead to me to where I am now.

I am a tad bit a little envious to my old self. Presently, I am sticking to  routinely working hour. Then I am still going to WORK FOR 28 years! The damn 28 YEars!

I study for 
Kindy-  3 years
Primary - 6 years
Secondary - 5+ 2 years
Tertiary - 4 years

Total - 20 years. 

I only study for 20 years and yet I have to work for another 28 years??!! I must do something so that I will love whatever I am doing, do something so that I will love my job, that I will looking forward to each and every day.

Dear Kok Shuh Hong, 

You can do it! You are someone who is passionate, talented, blur but you are willing to go all out of it! Find your direction, in a field that value you, and the field you like it! You  can do it! 

The master of your own time, money, sweat and tear! Now when reflecting on what you've done as compare to your university time. You have become much more mature, considerate and more responsible. 

Last time when you think that study is a serious matter, yet you do not really study hard enough. But I have not regret on it. If looking back at it. everything is perfect , except that I am indulging too much in studying, and play, joining society, until I forgot to lay a future foundation for my current self. To I didn't set a goal/ direction for myself, of  what I want to become in the future. 

Right now, stepping into working world. Everyday is a working day, even the rest day, I am also planning for something , working on something, working towards something to achieve some bigger thing in the future. 

So last time was good, but you are the better version of your past time. You are now more mature, responsible, capable and willing to work for it. Go girl! 

And now, what should I do for the coming 28 years?