Chinese Cultural Society

Look like i have not been update my blog long long time, okay, stop crapping.

But i really wanted to say something meaningful, or you can called it sermon....
I really found out that. if you do prepare well, you will really score well, you can present well too!

I did my presentation today, its a presentation about personality disorder, Panaroid Personality Disorder aka PPD, i think I did it badly, I dun even what was i talking about....haiz....thats the problem la, because last time, also the first time i did it, I really prepare so much, like 200%, I rehearsal 4 to 5 times before the real presentation. So...the conclusion, Prepare well is really important.

Secondly, I wanted to say that....what i want to say?.....wait, let me think for a second.I really manage my time so well here.

okay, pic times!

My university college CCS (CHInese cultural society) held a Chinese New Year celebration on Tuesday, and we had haunted house.I was snap with a "ghost" whose intially i think is the most scariest ghost. But no longer scary after several time enter and out from the ghost, as i am one of the crew helping there too!

 some of the ghosts, i thought they would have a horrible post, but their smile are so sweeet!

 Testing the game i am in charge of. I am the crew who work outside the haunted house la!

 reach there 7am to decorate our booth~~I still sleepy~~i Knew this is no a good excuse.

 

they were still many crews out there who were so so much commit to this event. Like anonymous A, he was injured during the martial art performance, very severe, but he still playing his role as a ghost.....clap for him~~~~, 

from 8am to 5pm.,they really did an awesome job.

I knew my hair is kinda messy, my coursemate even ask me whether I am a Sabahan?!!

Why?

Because you very fair.

my mind: is it because of my messy hair??

Okay, gud night people, I am quite sleepy right now.

PeAcE

26 th February 2012

I feel so tension recently, luckily i still manage to hold all of them and convert the tensioness into courage, motivation to study. OKay, but that's the point i wanted to mention right now.

I saw a sunrise today! at 7.15am like that.

I was so amazed that it just happen right in front of me, without any obstacle , through the window of my room...~~~~^^

TO my dearest Wei Sheng Tan!

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CNY 2012

Sorry for did not updating quite a long time......
hehehe, many things happen recently.


below are some of my photos taken during Chinese New Year.

Noted that I also falling sick during CNY, a very terrible sick until the doctor doubt whether to let me admin into Hospital or not. 

one of the photo that satified me the most, narcasticly, i think i look great here,hehe

KOk sisters in white! romance white??!!!

hu erm....somehow, i look pale this CNY.....

is it a hint that i am going to fallen sick?

for your information, this photo was taken the lunar year first day,
and my sick come find me the third day of lunar year~~~sob sob

i will be look after my meal ever since~~~

KOK family!!!!1

lastly, its my grandmum birthday!!!and my cousin as well!

Am i a human?

i like to eat, i know many people like to eat, but i think i like to eat more than other people like to eat SLIGHTLY,hahaha. How do i explain this? .......okay,
 i will eat a lot when i am unhappy,
 i will even eat when i am not hungry,
i will ask food from the kids when they are eating snack,
see, i am not only like to eat, i am also avarice. 


perhaps that eating can fulfill some kind of my lust, fulfill my fullness, i feel better after eat.
Basically, i will eat everything except seafood, (fishes are excluded from seafood to me). Everything mean normal food, food that can be found everywhere, but it is not weird things like spider, scorpion, snake, and also the organ of animals.


After my surgery, i had pratice healthy eating habit, at the begining, my meal is almost purely healthy,i mean the food i eat is strictly not cooking oil, but only cold press olive oil,


organic seasalt instead of normal sodium chlorine


eating fruit juice everyday, only i skipped sometimes during the weekend.


i pratice and follow the guideline from the camps that i learnt in the healthfarm.


Slowly afterthat, i slacked, and for my mother convenience, i started to accept normal cooking oil. Cause my family member ,they do not adept to my pure eating habit, they can't eat without cooking oil. And somemore, cold press olive oil cannot used to fry , not be able to tolerate high temperature, or else, it will become unhealthy too. (i forgot the reason)




After about 2 months of surgery, it was Chinese New Year2012, which is this year. I came back to my home town, i went to eat , i ate asam laksa(almost half a bowl), i drink 十全汤， a chinese tradisional herb soup which use duck to cook. These foods are the food that i shouldn't eat because i just completed a surgery, sommore, my skin is very sensitive, i got allergic, i got enzyma. and these recent years, i used to scartch my feet, hence my feet always bleeding, or some sort of liquid things will came out from the cut, and due overexposed to scratching, my feet surface become so lousy, just imagine the feet of 90 years old people. thats mine.perhaps because i always see them , i used to the condition of my feet ady,i mean i dun think its worse, its healing slowly.


But from other people'spespective, they are so shock and often throw out very exaggerate responde.






I think that i am so stupid, i am so frustrated of myself. Since i ate asam laksa and 鸭汤，i got the so called "nana" appeared on my face, my palm(now almost dissapear), and 7 SEVEN BIG Nana on my right feet!!!


I hate it!
I'm hating not because it let my feet look worse
I'm hating not because it make me to walk like disabled, and people see me often because of that. (i don't think u all can imagine how unplesant my feet look like, even people they will notice me before they see my face)
I am really to accept all the consequence if my got nana. 




I hate it because i hate myself.
Me! 
i will often scratch on my feet even i will itchy............many people who did care about me told me, they even scold me, they use whatever way so that i will not scratch my feet,they knew my condition as they see me everyday.................i sometimes cannot control, i know the action that i did will make my feet worsen, but when its itchy.......u know?!




Today, just a few moment ago, i went to eat supper with my family and relative. I am soooooo hate that i couldn't eat, because of the nana. Even the food that i can eat before this, i also cannot eat right now. For instance, i can eat fried mee that cook with prawn, sotong. I won't the prawn and sotong, but i can eat the fried mee. A


And today, i can't eat!!!!
i am so frustrate of myself,
why am i so avarice, 
why i just control myself?






just now seeing my relative eating.
i'm ponder
how good if i am sleep with tied on limbs, two hands and two feets,(so that i won't be able to scratch)


but think from one point,
Am i a gorrila? why i should sleep with tied?
thought human is animal
but human is the highest class animal,
possess the high IQ compare to others
human can think, act,control their lust and therefore should be respondsible about the consequence about their action.




I hate myself!!
why i can't control myself??
why i can't do things even simple like that?


i have had been a teacher who teach student , i had been teaching them how to behave well, all the custom that pratice in Malaysia, must called "aunty" when u met aunty........
i should be very mature
but i think i am only physically mature,
and 
i think all the everythings i did in school,
is only a streorotype!
In another word, i am wearing mask
a beautify mask when i become a teacher.






I hate myself!
In fact, i enjoy teaching people, maybe its strerotyping only.
I don't think i am wearing  a mask when i go to school.


why?
A teacher can teach student not do these, not to do that
but why i can't not to scartch?!
why?
Am i not a human?


(p/s: if i am a human, i suppose to can control myself)




Sorry, i am so moody right now, just now, sitting with my relative who ate fried rice, i even felt like wanna cry.
I think i have to at least be able to control myself, 
i must make myself try to avoid from fried food, eat only healthy food....


if my aunty can follow the rules 10 years, why i cant?1


I really hope that in the future time, i can open can fast healthy food franchise, and its operating 24 hours, so that people like me, or vegetarian, they can found food outside, just like any other normal people~!!!!


Good bye people! 
I hate myself! 

Rm200 book voucher

Erm.............which should i start?

I have soo many stories to share here.....

Okay, i wrote what is bear in my mind now. Its about the Rm200 book voucher issues.
Seriously, i don't understand, why? WHY? WHY?

This is so unfair. Our school, masterskill was giving Rm200 voucher from government,and that it says that all student who is between intake 201005 to 201105 and in active state will be eligible to get the voucher.

So

i can get the voucher

but

why?

its only for Diploma and degree student only!!!!

why??

i don't understand, people are studying also! Why that they can, but foundation can't ?!
i really can't understand it......


You know? i was on the bad mood that day,i felt imbalance. However, my housemate ,Mei yi, she is nice, each of them whose eligible would get 4 vouchers worth Rm 50 each. She gave me one of them, that mean i got Rm50 voucher, i used it to buy two english book, one is novel and another one is sort of inspiration of life. with the title " the 7 habits...."

i started to read the 7 habits ady, its meaningful, and the language use is pretty simple . I am glad that i can understand the meaning without much find dictionary.

Unlike, another novel, even i checked dictionary, find out the meaning, i still doubt about the story....

i guess, i still need to have a lot of pratice before i can truely understand them.

Anyway, Thx to MEI yi for sponsor me the Rm 50 voucher.
You did not make my day, but you did help a lot too!